PROM NIGHT!! <3

Prom night is coming really soon (less than a week!) I'm so excited about it. It'll be the first prom I've been to, it'll be my first time riding in a limo, and it'll be my first actual dance where I've had a date who loves me. I so cannot wait till prom night. My heart beats in anticipation everytime I think about it. Also, it will be a night I will remember for the rest of my life because it is 3 days after mine and Robert's 7 month mark. We've been together longer than I truly thought we would. I love him so much and I get to enjoy prom night wraped in his arms and dancing along with him (I just have to learn how first.)

I'M GOING TO HAVE THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!!

What is love?

Love...

It's the fuzzy feeling you get when you're around some one you trust your heart with.

It's being able to tell them your whole life and not caring what they think when you're through because you know they'll be there for you in the end.

It's falling asleep beside them and holding them closer in your dreams as you snuggle up to them.

It's knowing that no matter what happens you always have some one to hold on to you and comfort you.

My love...

My love is Robert. He's always there for me even when we fight. He holds me close at night and never lets anyone hurt me. He knows everything about my past and I know everything about his. He is the one I see myself with years from now, growing old and being with for the rest of my life. He is a really amazing guy and he knows how to treat me just right. He has his moments but who doesn't, right? I love him with all my heart and so much more. He's perfect in every way to me and I would never do anything to change him. He is my love and my life.

Roses Are Red

Ooy Gooy Chewy

My beautiful Chewy... she's scared us once already, but she puts a smile on everybody's face. She got into a plant that was poisionous to dogs and she got sick. She had to stay at the vet's office for a few nights and everything felt wrong. My other dogs were moppy and none of them wanted to play, instead they stuck their noses to the floor and looked for Chewy. My mom went and picked her up on February 28 after the vet said that she was eating and running around in the kennel looking for someone to play with.
She's a little ball of fun and she never misses a beat when it comes to playing around. I don't know what I would have done if anything had happened to her. She's the greatest puppy I could ever have asked for and I love her very, very much.

Beautiful

Beautiful is
the wide open sky
the green pastures stretching on forever.
It's a new-born baby,
but it's not me.
Only in your eyes
have I ever been considered beautiful.
I've been many things
but that's the one thing I've never been.
Beautiful is
a field of daisies blooming in the summer sun.
It's the sun sinking down behind puffy white clouds
but beautiful's just not me.

Save Me

Painful words fly through my mind
Like butterflies with broken wings
The dreadful things that were done to me
Make me want to kick and scream
I'm standing on the edge again
Watching the world pass by
One more step will end it all
Today will be the day i die
Don't bother standing down below
Don't catch me as I fall
It's time my heart stops beating
Once and for all
My mother's pleas go unheard
As the pounding of my heart
Echos in my ears
I close my eyes
I pray to God for you to pull me back
Pull me from the edge
Don't let me take that step

The Little Things

I just can't tell you enough
that you're my one and only man.
You're the one who stole my heart,
but believe me when I say,
"It's yours to keep."
You're the prince charming
who comes to rescue me;
the one other girls can only dream of.
True love's first kiss broke the spell,
the one that I've been under.
I just can't express in words
the way you make me feel.
I don't know how to tell you
that you take my breath away
and cause my heart to stop.
The look in your eyes,
baby, you make me want to melt.
Warm me up when the night get cold.
Hold me close when I get scared.
I'm forever yours; mind, body, and soul.
I whisper your name
in the dead of night.
It's like a gentle lullaby
just the way I like.
I listen to you sing all those country songs
and I realize...
You're my redneck king
and I'm your little country queen.

The Greatest Gift of All

My love. My true love.
An angel. God's gift to me.
A distant dream that takes me from reality.
A hold on faith and hope keeps me strong
Brings strength from deep inside.
My true love, you are God's greatest gift
An answer to many prayers.
God sent you to me,
To love me unconditionally.
You are one of Heaven's angels
with spread wings and a glowing halo.
My heart would fly away with you
But only if I let it.
My heart is still forever yours.
With each pounding beat
Love courses through my veins
And that love is for you alone,
My love. My true love.
An angel. God's gift to me.

Make Me Bleed

The blood runs deep in my veins
Scars blemish my body
My only release
My one true weakness
The blade against my skin
Blood flowing from open wounds
Unkept promises
Painful burdens lifted from my heavy heart
Too many times it’s been broken
Thoughts of suicide cloud my mind
A bullet to the head or a knife against my throat
Just a tug on the trigger
Or a flick of the wrist
It will be the end of it all
The pain
The hate
Everything
No more holding it all in
No more promises to break
There’s nothing left worth living for
People laugh
People cry
But I’m the one who makes the sacrifice
No more jokes and no more lies
I can’t take anymore of this
Memories are all I’ve got left
Of the good time and the bad
The dark days remind me
Of a life I wish to burry in the past
A life no longer worth living
And a life I’m willing to forget
Make me bleed
Make me cry
Make the nightmares disappear
I’m tired of hiding who I am
It’s time I let the world see…
…Me for me
All you have to do
Is make me bleed