What do you do when the person you love more than anything in the world doesn't want to settle down with you? I love Robert more than anything, but when I asked him what we were going to do when school is over he shrugged his shoulders and looked away. I asked him, what about moving in together, he said it's not what he wanted right now. That he didn't want to give up his "guy time" to settle down with me or anyone else. It broke my heart to hear him say it. I wish I had never asked. It did more harm than good and now I'm fighting the urge to just sit in a corner and cry till I can't cry no more. I hate knowing!! It's not fair! I love him more than he could ever know, but now I don't know if he feels the same about me. Nothing could make me love him any less but every day I love him o so much more. My mind is spinning with thoughts of losing him. They're so horrible!!! I want them to STOP but I don't know how! Maybe he'll change his mind by next May... hopefully.
