Broken heart...

Ending things with someone you love is hard, but sometimes it's something that must be done. I know I loved him with all my heart, but sometimes things just never felt right. His friends were always around and I never got to see him. Yes my heart is broken and I feel horrible but I just needed some time. We rushed into our relationship and into the engagement. I would have loved to spend the rest of my life with him, but I didn't feel right about it. It felt like something was missing...mostly communication. I felt unimportant to him most of the time; like his friends were the biggest thing in his life and I was nothing. He may be mad at me now, but soon he'll see that I was right and that we weren't. He said that if I joined the military, that he would move with me where ever I was stationed and that we would get married right away...I'm 18. I have a whole life ahead of me and I'm really not ready to get married right away. I need to be able to live my life the way I want to; to be my own person for a change. I've been living my mom's life and not my own for so long. I'm finally moving out of her house and getting my life to where I want to be for once. But now...I don't know anymore...