I hate how my life goes. Nothing seems to go right for me. I don't get to be happy with the one man who means the world to me and i don't get to have the family i've always prayed for. I love Travis with all my heart. He's the one and only guy who has ever made me feel wanted or even needed. He was the first guy i have ever trusted more than any guy i have ever met. The day he brought me roses i felt like i was the poor little servent girl and he was my prince charming coming in to rescue me. I miss the way he made me feel. I miss the soft touch of his hands as he held mine. I miss the safe feeling i got when he held me close at night keeping me warm...there's no greater feeling in the world than that. His beautiful blue eyes gleamed like the ocean during sun set. His lips always gave me butterflies in my stomach whenever he kissed me or even said that he loved me. I'm going to miss everything about him. My heart is completly broken and i don't think there's any one in the world that can fix it now. I was so scared of losing him again but i messed everything up. I kept starting arguments with him and draging everything on. It was all my fault, every last bit of it. I took him for granted and let him slip away from me. I love him more than words could ever say and now i don't have the chance to prove to him how much i really and truly love him. We have a beautiful little boy together and he looks just like his daddy. I want more than anything for him to grow up knowing who is daddy is and always being in his life.
